Bella’s Weekly Prizes
Bella absolutely loved playing games.
She would oftentimes gather us all together to play a game she either found or she created. I believe it was her way of connecting. It brought her great joy to bring the people she loved together through a fun activity.
During the 10 days of hospice, Bella was in bed at her grandparent’s home, and I was sitting by her side while she rested.
The sun was out and it about three days before she passed. The room was peaceful and quiet, and she was wearing her eye mask that she always wore to make sure it was dark enough for her to sleep comfortably.
All the sudden, out of nowhere, she say’s ‘There will be a different prize every week!’.
I sat quietly as I could feel that she was not talking to me even though, I was the only person in the room. She then said ‘YES!’ as if to answer a question or respond to someone talking.
Once again, I did not feel she was speaking with me and I understand now that she most definitely wasn’t. But I know she wanted me to hear her conversation. There were clues as to whom she was speaking with and the context of what she was collaborating would be pieced together later.
A few weeks after she passed over to The Beyond, I was floating in a pool reading a book about grief that I had been given.
The book was about a woman who lost her mother when she was a teenager. She disclaims in the book that she does not have any experience with any other type of loss, such as child loss, but suggests a YouTube video for parents who have.
I was intrigued so I watched the 2-hour documentary style video created by parents who have children on the other side and how they communicate with them.
This was extremely fascinating because I had already felt communication with Bella since she crossed over. This is the first time I have felt this kind of direct connection with anyone on the other side and I believe because Bella and I had entangled energy and I was open to receive that I was able to continue our connection after she laid her body down.
Only now, it is in a different type of language.
This documentary led me to a group of parents who share their experiences with communication with their children through signs, winks, and yes, PRIZES.
One of the main ways they practice communication is by announcing a specific ask- usually in the form of an animal- every Monday.
A different prize every week.
WOW. Bella gave me a clue before she left her body that she would continue communicating and keeping our relationship vibrant and alive.
I created a special and private group chat and invited some of our family and friends to play. We have been playing with her every single week and we are up to around 30 players. The ways she connects with us all is incredible. She uses the tv, radio, toys, art, words, you name it.
She is creative and playful. That is her essence. She is ALIVE through this connection and her light is still shining brightly and strong.
We make space to talk about her every single day. She is always top of mind, and she is giving us a reason to connect with her, one another, and ourselves. In connecting with her, she is teaching us to trust and connect with our own intuition. She is giving us the opportunity to expand and grow more love. She is helping us heal. And, when we invest in our own healing, we by product contribute to the healing of humanity.
This is BIGGER than our grief.
This grief is important. We are creating beauty. I encourage you to look for the ‘prizes’ in your own connection to loved ones that have crossed over. They want to connect with you, and they want to show you more ways to love. All you must do is be open to receive and believe that anything is possible.
Use your imagination! Ask for something specific. Look for the different prize every week!